zzz... a rant about sleep... zzz

Today I was thinking that I wish the writing that I do in this class would be graded on its quality rather than its frequency. I can babble on about anything for a good page or two but what I believe to be my really great ideas and writing usually don't come out of my head all that often. It's a shame really because it also makes me realize that the majority of the things I write are worthless, which vicariously leads me to question the caliber of the writing that I did put thought into. Does that make sense? I'm just rambling I guess, but if you're in the mood to read more stuff like that feel free to continue.

It occurred to me just now that this is supposed to be my "journal assignment" portion of this class. Does it still apply if I make it clear that I'm writing to an audience? I mean I address you, the reader, in all of my entries but that's not very journalistic. I hardly care but I suppose it is for a grade and I'm wondering if the teacher for this class is sitting there reading this thinking "Now he gets it" to herself. Shit this better be worth something, nobody should have to blog this much. Anyways I'm bored with my own rambling and I've come up with a topic to write a bit about. I'm going to talk about sleep.

Sleep is something that I've never been very good at. I can remember when I was in middle and high school I would either stay up all night and go to school as late as possible or I would go to bed a little earlier and wake up three hours before school started and just go there to spend time anyways. Maybe it was just because I didn't like being in my house but it really set in motion a chain of sleeping patterns that have kind of ruined me as far as my adult nocturnal habits go. When I got out of high school the first thing I did was move out of my mom's house. While I was living at my first apartment I was worked a night job at a hotel two nights a week, and also I was working at a clothing store part time around four to five days a week. I also at some point started going to tech college part time. 

This is where I think I really perfected the imperfection of my sleeping schedule. I would start my week staying up until around 2, get up at seven the next day for work or school. Then repeat that until Thursday. Then I would stay up working until 6 and sometimes not go to sleep until 10 that morning. This fluctuation really screwed things up for me because I could never seem to stay awake for the things I needed to do, but I could never fall asleep when I wanted to either. This became what I like to call "narcoleptic insomnia" and I gather that it's growing in popularity amongst college student like me, who have a job (or two...again >_< ) and also go to school. (full time now x_x )

So here the basic situation for NI sufferers like myself; you have three type of days. School days, work days, and school and work days. You might get a day off to drink, but anyone who binge drinks will tell you that's basically a job too, albeit a social one that costs money. (kind of like college!) On the school days you may get up, or you may not. You obviously didn't go to sleep very early the night before because you never do. If you do get up, it's as late as you possibly can, and it was probably to the sound of several different alarms spaced a stupid amount of minutes apart from each other. You may even do what I do and scatter them around the room to try to trick your mind into thinking you won't go back to sleep if you're forced to get out of bed. After you get up you go to class late. If you make it through the first one without falling asleep you will start dozing off in the second or third. When it's time for you to go home, you get there and realize you're at home and awake, making it possible to do all the things you like to do when you're home. You facebook and watch youtube, play video games or read, and you might even doze off a little during those activities. (This obviously causes problems later.When it finally comes time to sleep (and by sleep I mean do your homework) you actually go to bed around 2, 3, or even later.

On the just work days, your alarms goes off and most of the time you get right up. For some reason your body thinks that work > school so you're off. You're a little peppy, might down a red bull, then you crash about two hours before your shift ends. These become the longest two hours EVER. When you finally do go home it's basically the same as it would be had it been a school day. You put off the things you need to do for the things you want to do.

If you are cursed enough to wake up on a work/school day, your morning depends on what you start with. If it's work that means caffeine will be pumped into your body for the next five or so hours and when you finally get to school you seem to see everyone as a shitty customer or co-worker. You fall asleep in all of your classes, and when you get home you realize that this is actually the same day you started, it just doesn't seem like it because that was fucking ages ago right? Good luck, now you can look forward to filling the rest of your evening with mindless activities and eventually falling at 2 am trying to masturbate but not having the energy.

Told you I could do a page. ;)